after so long i am back .... hmmm wun be using the previous fb account... i am just wondering why do ppl cherish u at first but then forget about you when they dun need you ? i really dun understand i remember we have good memories with a lot of things in the life but in the end why it ended like tat ?
do u know how i feel when u say u can only sms me when got emergency thing and not other things ?
i dunno what is going on maybe is because ur fren bah .... i still wondering who is the girl who answer my call that day ... it sounded like one of ur fren and i dunno what you say to them but i can tell that they know ... since that time when i sit down they say wah u two fated la .... do u know how i feel? what you gave is only a smile but that does not show anything cause u are giving me a fake smile?
brothers? you sure? do u really care about people feeling or just use them when u needed and be selfish at times? sms u for help were u there? i really wanted to ask how many time have you helped me ?
i think the time that i helped u before is more than u help me .
u call me to forget about brother relation and just be fren ... do u think is really easy? all the things have been done althought is a past but is a part and parcel of my puzzle ... u really understand me ? for once i thought that you have changed but haix/.... u still nv put in effort to be a brother i can see la ... to you this may be nth is just losing a person but to me it means alot .... if feeling are so easily forgotten then that means u are treating this person like a shit and then you are just playing feeling with him/her.... haix i did so much to get you back as a bro but what did i do? did i always did something wrong? and you are not wrong? at first it was saying that you wanted to be brother.. and you always think that i am a person controlling u i think up till now also ...do u even spare a thought for me as a fren or a brother ...u really understand how i feel? when i tell u all those things do u think i really wanted to say do u know how upset i am feeling deep inside? it jsut like a cut in my meat cause everyone that i treated is with love care and respect ... to me if you are my brother i will treat you like a real one ... but if i illtreated u tell me ... i dun have a dictionary to be a good brother what ? haix all in all i thought this will not happen again but it does .... remember you tell me that time kor, i will not be like them de la ... but in the end still happen .... do u really forget how i treated u and helped u this 8 months ? do u really dun remember? because of some small things then you wan to disown me this bro? i really dunno .... acceptance and forgiven .. if ur charactor is luike tat i will accept cause when you accept then thats where you will forgive but then i dunno u just treat me like a useless person and just playing with me do u know ? I AM HURT ALREADY .... I took the break because i know when you see me u will not be happy and then i jolly well make myself scarce from you so that you will live happier... When you are happier do u know how sad i am ? i am trying to push to myself all the blame and you are there just dun care about how i feel... and do u know when you talk to me you are very rude? haix i think u also dunno bah ... you told me u dare to speak up but then this is really not the person that i trained or motivate out ... if your attitutde is like that i really dunno how liao le ... i just know that during this few months ,, i really think that you are a great bro until recently i also think that you are a great bro but i dunno what i do that make you so dun wan to talk to me ... is like i just sat beside you only but then you nv come talk to me and haix i also dun wan to talk cause i really dun like your fren comment .... haix i just hope this two weeks will be better after wards haix... few times of nightmares this few days i am mentally tired and physically tired liao le ....u really forget how much i been thru to celebrate ur bd? when i say out all those stuff to me i think you only think of urself , do u even care for my feelings? i cared for urs , but do u care mine? haix maybe i am just a person who you just despise ba... i really miss all those days that we are good really :(